Thanks for your comment. I'm sorry to hear that your husband doesn't have time for you. Hang in there. Take care.

Chad

I hope things get better for you. Take care.

Chad

What all did you do in Atlanta?  A new hair do always is a nice pick me up.....

And I bet you do miss your hubby.... I know I miss mine if we are apart for even a day....love does that to a person....

Have a blessed day, and a safe trip home....

Love and HUggs

Janica

Good Luck with your finals....I did my final test in SOcial Deviance today and I have my last test in Nutrition this afternoon them I am done with school.  I do still have to come here however for work study... but thats ok... at  least no more classes till August 25th....

HAve a good time in Atlanta... Hope it is a safe and fun trip for you.....

What courses will you be taking next semester?

I am taking A&PI and Moral Problems.  I am a tad anxious about taking A&P but was told by my biology instructor that beings I did so well with biology I should ahve no troubles with A&P... and her other advice was to use the tutors as they are available to me.

Have a blessed day....

Love and HUggs

Janica

Welcome back... have been wondering where youve been....

I will be taking A&P I next semester (fall).... I am excited....

Wow it sure does sound like youve been busy....

What kind of store did your hubby buy?

take care.... praying for you....

Love and HUggs

Janica

Thank you for the comment and thank you for the words of support. I'm not too settled right now, so I hope you can forgive me for not commenting you, I haven't really commented anyone today. Things have gotten steadily worse as the day goes on, I thought it wasn't going to bother me but it does. Take care.

Chad

Will be praying for you and hubby,,, no worries there!

Next semester (Fall) I will be taking A&P I  and Moral Problems, seens how I did not get accepted into the LPN program for Fall just yet due to my not being able to take that one class this month.  If that changes by the grace of God, I will be taking more classes then.

Other than that, thing s are going well, we are almost dont with spring semester also.... I will be working work study in the LRC this summer.

Have a great rest of your day...

Love, HUggs and Prayers

Janica

what's the agenda of your meeting in Chicago?

just stopping in to let you know i am home from the hospital now....

hope things are well with you....

have a good weekend....

love and huggs

janica

Perhaps you successfully prayed for me that's why my exam was good enough as my expectation.

I woke up with a tired back. so over sleep made me feel like crap until I got up.

I think if you relax and do your best, your grades will do better. The problem is:

-Having responsibilities

1- Husband

2-house work

3- school

4- Are there kids?

See you have a lot to do!

Hang in there!! Don't give up!

You are not dumb! Where are you living now? I don't want to ever hear you say that! I think you lost c

confidence in yourself!!

I am Nj-30 mins from Ny

My two cents for you would be..
As far as studies are concerned give it your best and tell yourself I'll take time but I'll do it, don't get dissappointed. Dissappointment makes things even worse. We all fall, we all make mistakes, we all are good at something and not so good at others; which me we need to learn to give ourself a breather, don't be too harsh on yourself but yet don't get too lax, bottom line. Keep trying your best and do that not for good grades but self improvement in time your grades will automatically improve. I could go on and on with this lecture... but lol I'll stop it for now.
As far as your hubby goes, again don't try too hard to get his attention. I obviously wouldn't know of the kind of equation you share but lifes general rule is the harder you try the more difficult it becomes, besides men think differently from what we do. To us it feels like "he doesn't care" but to him its "I did nothing wrong and I'm doing my best to keep you happy, now what more do you expect from me"....
So take a chill pill girl and be happy......

Luv

May the Lord lift your mother up and heal her with His loving and tender hands.... May He speak workds of encouragement to her hear, may she be still enough to hear them....

I will add your mother to the prayer list....

Have a good day,

Love HUggs and Prayers

Janica

no matter what's happening to us but we luv each other very much...

[macs]

Good luck with the A&P lab test.....   I cant wait till I get to take A&P next semester.....

Have a good evening,,,, HUbby and I are going out to AppleBees tonight at 9 for karoke with some friends from school... should be interesting.

Love and HUggs

Janica

Palwasha, I feel you only have adjustment issues and that's it. It will take you sometime to get used to the new city. When I moved to Karachi I used to miss the winters.. lols yup.... In karachi it stays warm throughout the year and I missed the different seasons you get to experience in peshawar. I don't anymore. Infact one of the reasons I'v been putting off my visit to peshawar is the cold :)

I hope you adjust quickly and your husband understands you better. wish you all the best with your tests.

RYN: My family in Peshawar is safe and sound, Alhamdolillah. thank you for asking.

Thank you for the kind comment in my diary,,,,,

I wish you luck with everything..... God bless you and thank goodness you did not get into the car wreck.... God was watching out for you!!!

Have a great night....

Love and HUggs

Janica

Hi Palwasha. Glad to know you are making friends.. you won't feel lonely anymore :) Also it's good that work and studies are keeping you busy :)

As for your aunt / mother in law, I hope you get along better with her than your sister in law :) You never know, in our part of the world it is said that a woman would like anyone except her first daughter in law :) In her case, it's your SIL.. she may just like you :)

Good luck on your A&P tests.... Im not looking forward to taking A&P I hear it is difficult.... BUT beings Im taking it after biology that should help some. (I hope)

Leave your blinders open when it comes to hubbys aunt, allow yourself to form your own opinion of her, dont let others be the judge for you....and most of all remember she is human and may have issues of her own that we dont know about that make her who she is....

I will pray for a good visit.....

Keep up the good studying.... Thats all Ive been doing the last couple of days myself....

Have a blessed evening...

Love and HUggs

Janica

people just dont understand, i was never fat untill now after having my 4year old she was almost 12lbs so i gain ALOT of weight becaues of that, i like when you said people think your fat becaues you eat alot lol its true but sad and i hate it, my hubby tells me i'm ok the way iam but i never belive him, i guess becaues i dont belive it, i'm still not over it yet to even start takeing the weight off but i will someday but alittle help would be nice from people around me......

fly hugs

I am going to school to become a nurse.... The classes I have this semester are: CPR/First Aid, Nutrition, Biology, and Social Deviance.

I am struggling a bit with the Nutrition and Biology as they are boring reads... they dont interest me like my other classes do... but I will be fine, I will pass them....

What are you studying?

Have a blessed weekend....

Love and HUggs

Janica

Oh I'm sorry you have so much to do and are so tired. Don't worry too much about the cleaning and stuff.. you are human, not a super-being. and don't stress over it if your house is not all clean.. nobody is perfect. Let everyone do their fair share.

thanxx heaps for the comment :) it truely does make sense like when people say when u feel like sh*t you look like sh*t :) just sometimes its hard but thanx alot .x

Men just totally don't get it. Men can't or won't express emotions and feelings, don't you notice their are hardly any men on this and if they are it's usually to boast about their sexual experiences. Uh duh. There is one nice man on here who is Michael, he has commonsensechristian (diary). He is great, older, has grandkids etc and is a really spiritual guy who adores his family. Usually I wouldn't follow a mans diary but michael is like a brother - dad - uncle - he's so caring, intelligent and interesting.  But your husband, he just doesn't get it. My advice is to mostly write your entries in a word document on your computer someplace and then cut and paste them on later so you don't spend too much time 'online', I don't mean to hide it from him, but just to avoid the arguement or stress. My husband knows I love MDD and didn't really get it till I went totally off at him the other day about it and now he is actually letting me talk about peoples lives etc that are on here ! He probably still isn't interested but...some people have a critical view of online friendships, including most men but I need that outlet. I used to keep a diary anyway, but it's far more interesting on line where  people can interact with your diary, I love it. I am not the worlds best cook, I can cook but don't feel confident giving you a menu - Im not real good, just basic stuff. But perhaps if anyone does give you recipes you can share them online for others to read. Might try out something myself. I hope people do. I might email you anyways and send you my email, if you ever feel like writing an email to a friend :-).

Take care,

xxx

Palwasha, This is a beautiful entry. I am so glad you are happy today. Susan is wonderful isn't she? She can lift up your spirits with her beautiful words :) I love my MDD friends and I consider you one.

All the best with your test :) *hugs*

Your entry-

amazingly beautiful... it made me smile 

~thank-you for your comment~

Awww sorry you are feeling so blah. Hope your mood picks up and your are more cheerful by the time you get to read this comment :)

Good Luck with your studies

*hugs*

good luck !

[Susans]

u r almost right, it was pakistan once upon a time but now it is Bangladesh

I added u as my favorite one..

Glad to know you got some shopping done :) Great!!!! You need to let him know how you feel. It's not that he doesn't care.. but men are like that, they don't understand unless you let them know.

All the best with your test and school!!

thanks for your good and important advice. hope that u can help me a lot.

[macs]

oh Palwasha, I can't believe how much you sound like me.. or the newly married me. Trust me things will get better..why don't you try to talk to your husband about how you feel?

And btw when he goes out to find himself business, maybe you could go for a round of the mall on your own?

I am planning to quit my job and one of my biggest fear is not having my own earnings in my pocket. I don't remember, ever asking anyone for money and I don't know how it's going to work out.. but anyways.. that's another story.

Just hang in there, try to discuss it with your husband.. don't accuse him, just try to talk to him calmly. Men never understand anything unless you tell them in very straight forward terms... yeah they are dorks like that!

I'm really sorry Palwasha! May Allah be with you and everything works out!

Btw is Palwasha your real name? It's a pushto name.. just wondering if you are a Pathan?

Firstly can you tell me when your birthday is?

Secondly, that is horrid, I feel really bad for you both; I hope everything turns out ok.

goodluck with that interview! i hope u get the job too!
xx ally

Thank you for the sweet comment on my diary. I know I am not really selfish but still I feel a little guilty about not staying home with my son today. Infact I couldn't, due to work issues.

Thanks for the suggestions for husband's b'day too. We have a family tradition for b'days. My husbands aunts, cousin's etc come over whenever it is a birthday.. without invitation :) and we have a small party.. so I can't really throw him a surprise party.. he knows there's going to be one anyways. The candlelight dinner is a sweet idea. We could go out that day. The last time we went out for dinner was on our anniversary and it wasn't such a good experience because we took ahyaan along lols :) Hopefully this time he'll go t obed early so we'll be able to go out :)

Good luck with the interview and the tests! You are in my prayers.

Sleep well and wake up well! Have a good weekend!

You are in my prayers. I hope you get really good grades and the job thingie goes well too.

If you dislike anatomy and physiology so much do you think a medical program is the right choice for you? Because Anatomy and physiology are a major part of that too right???

All the best!

What a sweet message. Thank you for sharing this!

RYN: I know we romanticize the notion of marriage too much.. whether you are in an arranged marriage or a love marriage, it takes a lot of hard work to make a relationship work out. 

I had only talked to my husband over the phone and met him for the first time on the day we got engaged :)

Ours was an arranged marriage. What about you??

Palwasha you are one lucky girl, mashallah. Your husband sounds like a really sweet guy who's trying very hard to make you feel at home, to help you adjust and make you happy. Adjustment will take time, but it will come don't worry. Glad you have work and school to keep you occupied now :) I hope you get your car back soon.

The reason I have two diaries on here is that I started the other diary well before I got married. Then when I got married I had issues like you do. I was unhappy, missed my family and hometown a lot, I felt I wasn't in love with my husband and I had lots of issues with my Mother in Law. I got pregnant almost immediately after I got married and that added to my stress. Then when my son was born I wanted to put all that behind me. So instead of deleting the old diary (because i didn't want to forget about all that I'v been trhough) I set it to private and started a new one. i don't write in that other diary anymore.

I used to go and see my parents every other month when i first got married, because I missed them too much. Now I don't miss them all that much.  This time around it's been 10 months since I last saw them, I'll be going in february inshallah.

Sorry about the long comment earlier. I just wanted to add that I hope you enjoy MDD as much as I do. I'v been here for about 2 1/2 years and have made some really good friends.

All the best,

Dear Palwasha,

Thank you for the note on my diary.

I am from karachi, Pakistan and would love to be friends with you. Looks like you have a lot of stuff to do this week. All the best with the job interviews. Maybe once you have a job, you will have something to focus on and will be happier?

I read your previous entry too and I can a bit .. infact a lot.. of the newly married me in you. I was not really happy in the beginning either and the fact that i got pregnant a month after I got married didn't help at all. It fact it worsened my feelings of loneliness and sadness. I'v been married for two years and it's only recently.. like the past 6 or 7 months that I cansay I'v been truly happy.

I'm sure your lack of happiness has nothing to do with your husband, as you say you love him... I personally believe it's all an issue of adjustment.. for me it was. I didn't realize that till it was over. But now when I think back about it, I think it was only because life was so different and I was so far far away from everyone that I had ever loved and known. I was in a totally new place, new family, new people, new workplace. I think it's the same for you .. isn't it? It took me quite sometime to find new friends.. I hope you can find some friends sooner. Once you have friends, that you can go out with and interact with.. you will feel better. Take up some hobby meanwhile. something you enjoy doing.

You can go back in my diary and read the entry titled "Last year vs. This year". You will see what a difference a year can make. I hope you find your happiness soon. :)

[Sapphires]

Good luck with school tomorrow....

Janica

P.S. Thanks for the comment in my diary.....